Things effect me so easily now. I guess its cause I'm still postpartum... technically... I think. Apparently after you have a baby your hormones go crazy and that's this period of time, postpartum, while your body tries to stabilize itself again. It's like I lost control over my emotions. I used to be able to numb myself to the world and everything would be fine. I could keep all my feelings looked up tight in a cage and no one would even know. Now it's like as soon as something happens the emotions is bursting out of me. Like someone completely smashed that cage to pieces and I can't control each and every feeling as they pop up. It's like they have a mind of their own. I'm just struggling trying to catch them all before they jump out and start affecting my world. I need my ability to numb myself. I'm afraid I won't be able to survive in this world without it.
Song of the day:
This song always makes me feel better when I'm upset
Gavin Degraw - Chariot
Maybe, instead of trying to be numb, you could find a way to use your emotions to your benefit... I don't really know what I'm saying but I think about those really emotional people and they're surviving somehow. You could have an emotional outlet or something. Like when you wanna cry, you'd go draw or something, or when you're upset and want to pound something, you could go bake... And if those don't work, blog and talk to those who make you happy. Have a person you can speak to for each emotion. I do :D
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