Mission Impossible

So much on my mind yet I'm still having writer's block. I spent all day inside... well most of the day. I did take a short trip to the store. Today was a day to just relax. Ethan even slept long enough to let me watch a movie. Still trying to figure out what to do with my hair. Currently pretending that I'm good at braiding just to see how it turns out. Maybe I should have watched a youtube video first or something like that but oh well, it's too late for that now. Thinking over what I'm going to do with my life. I would love to be a stay at home mom.... well at least for the first year of Ethan's life. I don't want to miss all the little things. It's fun watching him grow and learn a bit more each day. That and in today's society there's no way that we are gonna get by if I don't work too. And also my mom wants me to finish school which is definitely something I want to do. But school and work leaves barely any time for me to be with Ethan. My mom thinks that's fine though. Probably because that's what she did, but this is my first child, my first son. I just became a mom and whether he remembers if I'm there for it or not, I definitely don't want to miss out on all his firsts. I want to be right there the first time he sits up by himself, and the first time he takes a step. I want to be in the room when he says his first word. It would kill me if after a long day of work I come home and the babysitter tells me "Ethan said mommy today". So now I'm stuck trying to figure out how to be super mom. How can I work go to school and still not miss out on all the firsts?


Song of the day:
Wayne Brady - Ordinary